When I was so bored

My back aches. First thing that came in mind as I lay in bed forcing myself to sleep. It used to be 6am to 3pm, then 7pm to 5am, then noon to midnight and then now 7pm to 5am again. No wonder my biological clock is screwed up. 

I haven’t heard from anyone for the past 5 days. Hope everyone is doing fine. Currently back in Adelaide, my second home apart from the forever sweet Malaysia, I don’t have much strings attached. Somehow nowadays people has been asking me whether do I have a girlfriend or not and it’s always guys asking me. WTF. Everyone is pretty much gone at least those I studied together with. It’s pretty tough trying to live a quiet and lone ranger-type life but I guess I’ll get used to it. 

“It’s better in life to always be a lone ranger. Don’t hang out with too many friends and of course, don’t make enemies. In a way you will never feel lonely when your friends move on (Even your best friend will move on eventually with their wives and kids). In another way, when someone special turns up in your life, you will learn to appreciate her/his presence in your life.”

Akil Hassan Kalimullah said that. Or somewhere along the line. Pretty smart isn’t he. It’s time like this I hang on to some of the things he said to go long another week of hectic work schedule, daily mindfucks and an unhealthy yearn for an awesome girlfriend. Remember this, your best friend or anyone that knows you long enough always remind you of you really are, where you come from and what’s deep down you.

Speaking about friends, I thought of one of those things Kathir said a long time ago. First of all, I have to admit that I did something pretty daring a few weeks back. Aussie day in fact. I gathered shit loads of balls to do that but it didn’t really worked out. I guess, yeah, cannot help but felt a bit heartbroken but somehow Kathir’s word never fails to lift me up again. 

“When you love something or remotely like something, sometimes you just have to let it go. That way, you’ll truly move on in life.”

It’s so true. Miss you guys. Speaking about these Subang Jaya monkeys, I heard Lawrence got a job as a lecturer in Taylor’s and most of us went wtf. To the parents wanting to send their kids to Taylor’s, you should not. Quit when you can! So far away from anything right now. I’m going home tomorrow. Finally, home sweet home. 

p.s. I cannot stop but wonder why did Nadrah stop replying me since she got back from UK? Did I do something wrong?

Yours truly,

Hanjun